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Loveless Ruminations

by DiGregorio

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Fountain 03:26
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I am the fountain that bleeds The river that flows with blood You laugh and hurl disdain Enjoy the tears I cry Your promises, A double-edged sword Venomous and acrid I am the fountain that bleeds The river that flows with blood You have sliced my veins Left me hang to dry The wounds you inflict Infected; festering Gangrenous; rotting I sit and I wonder How you ripped my soul asunder I thought you could move mountains But carnage is what you thrive on Blood flows like a fountain
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Desert 08:52
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Desert Left in the desert to rot Flesh decays Bones bleach in the sun From when you rescued me Then you walked away Leaving me to die Would have been much kinder To never stretch out your hand Would have been much kinder To rip the flesh from my bones You gave me hope I never had before You teased me with heaven And then you walked away What choices do I have So many yet so few What life do I have So little left to do A mad oasis in the middle of the desert A mad soliloquy echoes in my head So close I could touch it So far I never really had it Cut me and watch me bleed Cut me - end this misery Death is better than this torture The only form of nurture Cut by the blade Cleaved through and through Damned though I do not Condemned though I do Now I throw myself Upon this pike Cowardice Disguised as might And thus I walk away You held out your hand Bandaged my wounds Kissed me oh so tenderly - and then you walked away So I sit with wounds reopened Waiting to die Stranded in the desert Bleaching in the sun Left here to rot Scavengers pick my carcass clean
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Open Water 05:30
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Struck in open water Mighty ship goes down Set adrift toward slaughter Hatred shown through kindness Despise disguised as love’s brightness Listing, bobbing, set adrift Fiery sun a-blazing Reflecting in the ocean mist Better that we had drowned Set free, not ocean-bound But the sun blazes on To the dusk from the dawn We slowly cook in our own skins Pray for starvation to set in Lips dry, cracked and bleeding Tongues swollen, choking Pray to God, entreating “Please end this torture Lift us to nurture” Each in turn falls asleep To dream eternally Leaving me to brave the sea Better that I had died Set free, not on this tide But the sun blazes on To the dusk from the dawn I slowly cook in my own skin Pray for starvation to set in Another mirage looms ahead Teasing salvation I beg you let me join the dead Don’t leave me here on this ocean Fall into unconsciousness To eternal sleep Awakened from sweet lifelessness Run aground on this beach But the sun blazes on To the dusk from the dawn I now find shelter from its gaze And here I finish all my days Stranded alone No will to live No will to die I just survive Abandoned hope Live out my days Stare at the depths And wait for death Hatred shown through kindness
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Outcast 04:59
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Outcast Friendless Nailed myself to this tree Lonely Exiled Wand’ring eternally Reveled in my fantasy I never knew You hated me I sit now Rotting in misery No miracle to save me No soul in this shell Hollow, empty I meet my destiny You were never part of me Every time I think I’m rid of you You waltz back through my door Can’t expunge you from my mind Can’t evict you from my thoughts Can’t extract you from my heart Can’t extricate you from my soul Won’t bear this torment any more Won’t walk this path any more Won’t climb this hill any more I can never reach the top of this mountain I belong nowhere I befriend no one I am welcome in no home In this storm I die alone Lost at sea and none will know Drifting on the tide till sweet Death takes me home A nomad Throughout life Without joy Without love Without hope Without a heart Without a soul And soon to be without a mind I’ve lost myself
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Blood Eagle 05:10
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You have ripped my chest in two Never even knew Life within just bleeding out Gladly handed you my soul As if you would make me whole Now choke on each blood-filled breath If I set you free Lock myself within a cage If I let you live I will die before old age Blood Eagle Gagging on every breath Blood Eagle Rips the life from my chest In kindness you choked my breath In loving you delivered death Sirens calling me to dock Dashed upon the rocks Dying staring at the sun Took me in and healed me Dressed my wounds completely Took your blade and started ripping You have set me free Locked me up within a cage You have let me live Yet I’m dead before old age Blood Eagle Gagging on every breath Blood Eagle Rips the life from my chest I drown alone in blood and tears An empty life of wasted years What madness is this? I cannot let you go No matter where you cut I gladly give you more My blood flows freely Pooling at my feet There is no more pain Only desolation - Isolation - Drowning in my own blood I prayed for reclamation Dreamed of a knight on a white horse I begged forgiveness Could I have saved myself? The fates are cruel Death now divides this fool Blood Eagle Gagging on every breath Blood Eagle Rips the life from my chest In kindness you choked my breath In loving you delivered death You've dissected me to shreds To the wild dogs then fed I was still alive and breathing With your kindness tortured With your softness murdered Can I finally be set free?
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Forever Alone 04:31
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Surrounded by the world But there's no comfort in numbers An Island of one Miles of ocean between Barren trees give no fruit Barren land yields no crop An idle mind turns on itself Despair, depression, insanity Solitude destroys Kindest words do cut Actions oppose words Retreat into my mind Barren trees give no fruit Barren land yields no crops An idle mind turns on itself Despair, depression, insanity Forever alone A begging orphan A waif on the street Longing for a home Try to avoid my fate Surrounded by the world But there's no comfort in numbers An Island of one Miles of ocean between Barren trees give no fruit Barren land yields no crops An idle mind turns on itself Despair, depression, insanity
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Black Widow (Feat Seethe) 04:12
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“Welcome to my parlor” Said the spider to the fly So you flew right into her web There’s something that you didn’t realize “Come sit down and have some tea” The spider beckoned you Sunday morning in the garden You never knew the main course was you Welcome to the Black Widow’s Nest Who are you, a lover or a guest? Either way, you’re just another pest Come on in and take a little rest When it’s all too late - You realize - You’re trapped in a web - You’re paralyzed - She’s smiling at you… She’s walking toward you - You see her eyes - And she bares her fangs - You think you’ve won the prize - She’s smiling at you Welcome to the Black Widow’s Nest Who are you, a lover or a guest? Either way, you’re just another pest Come on in and take a little rest “Welcome to my parlor Why don’t you come on in?” Another Déjà vu And you feel like you are in Heaven “Come sit down and have some tea” You heard this line before So you sink deep in the cushions “There is always room for one more” Welcome to the Black Widow’s Nest Who are you, a lover or a guest? Either way, you’re just another pest Come on in and take a little rest

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This album represents so much - beginnings, endings and somehow never giving up even though we sometimes really want to. Through all the loss and all the pain, there is hope, adaptation and a profoundly deep knowledge that life continues beyond what we know.

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released February 2, 2024

Jeremy Papay - Drums and the uncanny ability to accuratelyknow what I'm actually trying to describe...
Bob Horwatt - Keyboards and spiders (DO NOT ASK!)
Aaron Griffith - Bass and memes
Suzanne - guitars, guitar synths and vocals (YES!)

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DiGregorio Pittsburgh, Pennsylvania

Descend the spiral staircase in front of you. Further, deeper, darker. Voices surround without source, some near, some far. Something moves in the darkness up ahead - is it human? Breathing halts. You cannot move. Hands pull at your arms and legs - but in this kind of darkness, you can’t see a thing.

DiGregorio was born from such a nightmare.

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